Tapping my foot, biting on my pencil and butterflies in my stomach. This can only mean one thing, we’re about to photograph a couple. It happens every time we have a shoot. I get nervous…like don’t talk to me I’m concentrating on my stomach competing in a gymnastics meet and trying to win gold in the floor routine.
Will we be good enough? Will we walk away with pictures we’ll be proud of? More importantly, will they laugh at my jokes?
Photography is one of the hardest things to get into, in my opinion. You put yourself out there completely to be judged, to be liked, to be disliked, to deal with criticism, etc etc. I don’t know about you guys, but I don’t deal well with criticism and judgment and would rather play solitaire under a rock for eternity than deal with it.
In fact, I hate putting myself out there whatsoever. I was an extremely shy kid. I mean, EXTREMELY. Why? I believe it was to shield myself from being judged. Now I have a business where it’s all about our image and if people like us or not; it completely goes against my natural instincts.
This blog, photography and dealing with people on this level helps me grow little by little. I’m learning to deal with my flaws because I have no other choice. Maybe it’s just what I needed personally.
Actually, it’s exactly what I need.
I don’t like to post without a picture so here’s a recent one of Pat and I at his sister’s wedding a couple weeks ago. Taken with my crummy camera phone.