This is how I feel about this post.
As I sit here and think about the things I’ve said I was going to strive for this year, a thought has come across my mind. Where is the motivation to do this coming from? Growing up, I always knew I needed to do something creative. What was that something? I didn’t know. I just knew that something in me told me to stay away from the mundane every day jobs. Over the years, I’ve struggled to find out who I was and what I’ve really wanted to do with my life. I’m talking long nights of tossing and turning, thinking I’d never find what I love. Those long nights have not stopped. Instead, they’ve turned from worry to motivation. Motivation to pursue a hobby I fell into. Motivation to turn that hobby into a well run business. Motivation to finally be me.
Anyone who knows me well knows I am ridiculously silly and easy going. I’ve used that part of me to get me through jobs I didn’t like and places I didn’t want to be in life. If I were down – I could always rely on my sense of humor to laugh it off. I want to use that in a different way now. I want to have fun with clients we photograph and use that wit to make them have fun and be comfortable. In the process I will be comfortable, with myself. It feels good that photography is something that requires me to put all of myself into it in order to be successful. That to me, is all the motivation I need to get by.